Monday, December 31, 2007

New Year's Eve

Lydia had her EEG this morning at 10:00...went well. We will have to wait for Dr Hollman to interpret the results, but the guy who conducted the test this morning said that he didn't see any abnormalities.

The drug company called this morning to tell us that they wouldn't be able to ship the ACTH (the injection medication for the spasms) until Thursday, the 3rd. We also spoke with Woman's Home Health care...they will come every day for the first week to teach us how to administer the shots. They will also continue to come 3 days per week for the 2 months to take her blood pressure and draw blood once a week to check for infection. We were glad to hear that our co-pay for the multiple-thousand dollar drug will only be about $150.

Dr. Wood called this morning to tell us that Lydia's thyroid levels were normal, but a little too normal...whatever that means. He wants us to cut her dose of medication in half. I will just have to break the pill in half before crushing it to give to her each morning.

That's all for now. I'll check back when we have our results from the EEG and after our first day with home health.

Sunday, December 30, 2007

More spasms

Just when I thought (or hoped might be a better word) that Lydia had stopped having the infantile spasms, she had two more tonight. A little after 7:00 I was changing her on the changing table in the bathroom while Martin was getting bath water ready for the big girls to take a bath. When I picked her up, I felt the trembling motion and knew right away that it was the beginning of a spasm. I put her down and told Martin to watch with me. After the first few times, he remembered that Dr Superneau had told us to try to video tape it so that Dr Hollman could see exactly what it looked like. By the time he got back with the camera, he was able to video about 3 trembles. She did it a total of 9-10 times. I was trying to watch the clock to determine how long it lasted and how much time was between each one, but my brain was just frozen for some reason. I was looking at the clock and could not remember what time it was since the last time I glanced at it. I was so intent on looking at her. I was also trying to count between each one and was having a hard time doing that too. It seemed as if it was 10 minutes total, but I know that can't be right because it was about 20-45 seconds between each one (or so I think).

Then, at about 11:00 tonight, I changed her diaper and she began another episode on the changing table. Martin came with the video camera again, but she stopped after about 2 times. So, I brought her back to the living room where I was feeding her...then, she did it 8 more times while I was holding her on the couch.

I am no longer doubtful that she'll need the injection treatment. We'll wait to hear tomorrow if she'll do the EEG. I'll try to update tomorrow as soon as I have new information.

Doing Well

Things are still going well here at the Poche house. Most of us are slowly, but surely getting rid of the bad colds we've all had. Audrey and I are still hanging on to a little cough, Lydia...a little congestion, and Martin...swollen glands.

We will wait to hear tomorrow about plans for the EEG. It will be done at the Lake, and the guy who does them (the only person handling all EEGs at the Lake) will call us in the morning after he sees his schedule to let us know if he can fit Lydia in and what time. If he is too booked, we will postpone until Wednesday. I'm going to try to call Dr. Hollman's office in the morning to talk to her about the EEG and the plan for the shots. I want to let her know that Lydia has not had any more of the infantile spasm episodes since Thursday (in Dr Superneau's office). She was a little confused about the fact that they have been so infrequent. She said that normally, when babies have infantile spasms, they have about 3-4 episodes per day. Lydia has never had them that frequently. There was a 2-week span between the first and second one. Since then, it had become once a day or every other day. I assumed (as Dr hollman) did, that they would become more frequent...but they haven't. Dr hollman thought that the EEG might show abnormality tomorrow since she was having them more....now she's not, so I don't know if Dr Hollman's plan will change or not. I'll call in the morning.

Thank you again for all of the words of encouragement I have received and the prayers and faith. I wanted to share something with you that always works to strengthen my faith even more. I have a prayer journal that I got for Mother's Day a couple of years ago (when I was pregnant for Elise). I don't write in it every day or at any regular intervals...only when I feel inclined to. I took it out this morning, and it had actually been since Sept 5 that I wrote in it last...I've been trying to pray on the run for the last few months :) Every time I write in it, I try to read at least a few entries that I've written before. I have to tell you that EVERY single prayer that I have written has been answered in one way or another. Sometimes I don't even remember the prayers I've requested in the past, and I am always in awe at how I know from my life that the prayers have been answered. I encourage anyone to do it because it is key to strengthening faith in God. It fills me with such closeness to the Holy Spirit to see in writing how He has NEVER let me down. I can't tell you how much it has helped me. It is much of the reason why I know that God will be with us every step of the way through any trials or challenges that Lydia and our family have. We are all so very blessed!

Friday, December 28, 2007

Thank you

I want to thank everyone who I've spoken with by voice or type in the last couple of days...so many words of encouragement and prayer. Our family is very lucky!

Lydia had a good day today...eating like a little piglet...most bottles- 4 oz was just not enough, so by all means, I gave the little lady a little more! :) We went to the lab for her blood test to check her thyroid levels...they did a foot stick this time, and she did ok. It just takes so long when they do the foot stick and she, of course, cries the whole time...I would too. She got through it though...and was smiling as soon as they were done.

A sweet quote from an innocent child....
On the way home from the second dr's office yesterday, Audrey asked, "Did she do it?" I didn't know what she was talking about so I asked, "Who?" She said, "The doctor." Intrigued, I asked, "Did she do what?" Her reply: "Did she fix Lydia?" I told her that all the doctors were working on it, and they weren't sure exactly what needed to be fixed quite yet. She seemed to be satisfied with that..."Oh."

Funny stuff with Elise-
She is starting to develop a little more mature sense of humor...making jokes herself. I've said how she likes to repeat stuff over and over again lately. Last night, Mom and Dad were here...mom picked up food from the deli at Walmart. When Elise started eating, I gave her some ketchup...when she started to ask for more, I said, "I'm going to pick up the ketchup." Then she started saying, "Momma up up..." which of course meant, "Momma picked up the ketchup." Then she would shake her head "no" and say, "Maw-Maw up up.." and we would say "no, Grandma didn't pick up the ketchup." I asked, "Who picked up the ketchup?" and she said, "See up up" (pointing to herself with a big grin) which meant--Elise picked up the ketchup...we could tell that she was trying to make a joke...so we bought in: "Elise didn't pick up the ketchup!!" She kept repeating over and over...all the different people in the room. The silly grin on her face was so cute...I could tell that she thought it was hilarious and that she was creating the joke. It made my day.....needed that!

Thursday, December 27, 2007

More info

It has been a long day...let me see if I can remember all of the information we received today. We arrived at our appt with Dr Superneau at 9:15...and didn't leave his office until 11:30. He is really concerned about all of the combined factors about Lydia. At the last visit, he said that if all was well by now, we would know that we worried for nothing...now he is leaning more to the side of "something is not right with her nervous system." Here are the issues: feeding problems, weight gain problems, developmental delays, upturned big toes, not holding her head up yet, lactic acid elevation, thyroid concerns, acid reflux and possible seizures. She actually had one of her episodes while we were at his office. Dr Superneau thought positively that it was seizure-like activity...I've also been thinking that in the last couple of days, since it always occurs in clusters. I haven't done a good job of keeping track either...my estimating skills aren't the best...so, this time I actually timed it: She had her trembling spell 8 times in 4 minutes. Another big concern he had was that her head growth has slowed down. Last visit, it was in the 10th percentile...this time, it was just under the 3rd percentile. Also, her soft spot was small...this all indicates that her brain is not growing as it should. Since the head is usually the last to be affected by malnutrition (and she has been eating fairly well anyway) he doesn't feel that it is an effect of poor nutrition. He feels that it is a defect in the function of her nervous system.

After her seizing episode, he called Dr Hollman to discuss the episode, the lack of head growth, and to find out the results of the EEG...since Dr Hollman (neurologist) is the person who interprets the results. He came back out to talk to us and said that Dr Hollman told him that the results of the EEG were normal, but in light of their conversation, she wanted us to see her now. I asked if we could have lunch first (Martin and the girls had already walked downstairs to Subway), and he said that she was waiting for us right then....a little bone-chilling.

Dr Hollman and Dr Superneau both agreed that there were a couple of disorders/syndromes that they suspect for Lydia...though Superneau doesn't want to test for them now because we would sort of be on a fishing expedition and the treatment for the symptoms would not change at this point. He wants us to wait a while longer to see how her symptoms progress to help us narrow the possibilities before ordering very expensive tests. The disorders that come to mind for them are Rett Syndrome or some type of Mitochondrial disease, such as MELAS. I put some links below...none of these have very good outcomes. To put it in Dr. Hollman's words, "Rett is bad. It is very bad." After reading up on some of these things, it is easy to see why they suspect them with Lydia...she has many of the symptoms. Although, Elise had many of the symptoms of William's syndrome and was found not to have it. All I know is that it is what it is, and we will deal with whatever comes our way. My hope is that Lydia will grow and develop as normally as possible. My prayer is that God teaches and molds me to be the kind of mother that she needs. I've had some time to reflect on this situation over the past couple of months, and I feel like this...God, for some reason felt that there should be a Lydia in this world...created perfectly the way that she is (and she must be perfectly the way that God wanted her because God doesn't make mistakes)...and...for some reason he thought that Martin and I would be the best parents to care for her...what a compliment and an honor! I know that He won't abandon us, so I am up to the challenge with Him by our sides. My friend, Sabrina, sent me an email recently...She said that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, so He must really have a lot of confidence in me. I don't know if that's true, but it's kind of nice to think of it that way.

Back to the seizure-type episodes...Superneau and Hollman agree that it is probably infantile spasms. Everything about what we describe points to this...everything except the results of the EEG. But, as Dr Superneau said...we treat the patient, not the paper. Dr. Hollman wants to treat this as soon as possible so that we don't risk any further brain damage. Lydia will have another EEG next Monday to see if maybe we caught it too early, and that is the reason that it was normal...possibly by next Monday we will see some abnormalities in the EEG. Regardless, we will start treatment next Monday....daily injections for one month followed by a weaning process: 1 shot every other day for a month. Home health will come to do it for a week and then they will teach us how to do it for the remaining period. Dr Hollman said that this treatment almost always stops the spasms. She will begin the insurance process now because they almost always try to decline to pay for it....one vile of medication that holds 20 doses costs $29,000. Unbelievable!! She also said that there are some side effects to the medication: increased appetite and weight are two of the side effects (sounds like a good thing for Lydia, but Hollman assured me that it was not really a good thing)...along with swelling and puffiness of the face, increased blood pressure, and extreme irritability. She will want her blood pressure to be taken three times a week while receiving the injections and take regular blood tests for something else...can't remember right now what it is. In the meantime, we will go back tomorrow for a blood test to check her thyroid levels to be sure that the medication for that is helping.

I'm sorry I've declined to talk about this with everyone who has called...it is just, as you see, SO MUCH info. Although I have complete trust in God, this is all so overwhelming and stressful. Please pray for Lydia and our family.

Rett Syndrome
http://www.healthnewsflash.com/conditions/rett_syndrome.php
Mitochondrial diseases
http://www.mda.org/publications/Quest/q65mito.html
MELAS
http://www.medicinenet.com/melas_syndrome/article.htm

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Quick Catch-up

A very fun, but much too quickly passing Christmas this year! Lots of good time spent with family...though everyone in our house is sick right now. We are working on getting everyone better.

Lydia had her 4-month check up today, or so she was supposed to. Since she was sick, he didn't do the check-up..checked her out and found that she has an ear infection in her right ear and fluid in her left ear. This is the first sign of ear troubles...probably stemming from her cold and congestion. Weight gain was right on target!!! She is now weighing 11 lbs. 4.5 oz. That is about 6 oz in 6 days...exactly what the dr would like to see.

She is still having her little trembling episodes...I'm not sure what it is now. The results from her EEG should be in tomorrow...hopefully. She was a perfect angel for the test on Christmas Eve. She had to stay awake longer than she EVER has, and she dealt with it like a champ. We were so proud of her!!!

I asked Dr Wood today about the amount of time she spends sleeping...it seems quite excessive...8-10 hours at night...during the day, she'll eat for 20-30 minutes, then stay awake for about 30 minutes before she's ready to nap again. After that, I have to wake her when it's time to eat again (I feed her every 3 hours.) If I don't wake her, she'll sleep 5-6 hours at a time, and I'm afraid she won't get enough calories in that way. Dr Wood said that has always been a concern to him...it just joins all the other issues: feeding difficulties, difficulty gaining weight, excessive sleeping. Dr. Wood thought she looked good today...she actually looked at him a couple of times...that's the first time he's seen her fixate at all, though she has been doing that more at home. He also noticed the beginning of her little double chin...we are so proud of that double chin!!!

Excitement with Elise!! Talking up a storm!!! She is now frequently putting two words together (or signs with words) and sometimes 3 words!!! She doesn't always say them back to back...she'll wait for a response first before saying the second word but they clearly go together. Example: Today she said "change" (with the sign) ...and after I repeated "change"...she said "diaper" Then she said, "poop." Audrey spent the night at my mom's a few nights ago with her big cousins to bake Christmas cookies, and Martin and I noticed that Elise was a different person with her gone! She was just communicating like she had been doing it for a year now...amazing! We guess Audrey just always says everything for her, so she doesn't use words as much when she is around. It was so cute...I asked who was on her cup, and she said, "Nanna Caus"....Santa Claus!!! She is using the /t/ sound very consistently now...mostly at the end of words, but very well pronounced! She is making progress by leaps and bounds lately! I can't even remember all the things she's been saying.....

Audrey has been doing much better lately. I am trying to concentrate on making "Audrey and Mommy time." I know she needs it. Now that Christmas is over, I am expecting to have more time to spend with each of my girls to fulfill their needs.

We go for our appointment with Dr Superneau tomorrow. Hopefully we'll get some more info. Martin is coming too so that he can ask any questions he may have. Dr Wood said that we'll need to check Lydia's thyroid level soon since she's been on the meds for about 2 weeks. We'll see the endocrinologist soon, as well as the opthamologist and neurologist....all appts coming up in January. I also asked Dr Wood about seeing a second GI dr to brainstorm solutions for Lydia. He said he'd be glad to set us up with Dr Alberti, so that will probably be soon too.

I'll try to update again with results of the EEG and news from dr superneau.

Saturday, December 22, 2007

A Little Scare

Tonight we had our Christmas party with my dad's family at my grandmother's house. It was a fun time. Towards the end of the night, my mom took Lydia into the bedroom to feed her her medicine (Nexium)...a few minutes later, she called out to us frantically. Lydia had started to choke and gag on her medicine and it looked as if she stopped breathing a couple of times. She was doing sort of the same thing that she's done a few times in the past couple of days, but she was having more trouble catching her breath. She's been so congested that it is causing these gagging and choking fits. The good news is that now she can take some medicine for it...the dr's were not allowing us to give her anything for the congestion because she is so young. They said that the new guidelines are to avoid decongestants until age 2. I took Lydia and Elise to the dr's office today to check them out before the holidays to make sure that they didn't have any real sickness besides a cold. Dr. Ramey confirmed that they both just have really bad colds. He also said that since the humidifier, suctioning, and inclined bed position are not really helping, we could go ahead and give her some Benadryl. She's had two doses so far...I think it is helping...kind of hard to tell. Anyway, she is sleeping well now...still very loud breathing, but she seems to be at rest. Please continue to pray for our girl. Martin said tonight (and I agreed) that sometimes we wish we could just fast-forward about a year to get through all of these scary, painful ailments. It is so hard to watch her in pain and so scary to feel a little helpless. Jory said tonight that he has never seen anyone as stopped up as she is now. My poor baby. And, of course, her feedings are not going as well. Just like all of us, I think she has less of an appetite because of the sinus drip. I was trying to get her to take more than 2 oz tonight...with no luck when Martin said..."I think we can give her a break. Anytime your mom says, "Do you think I should call 911?" I think we can let it slide if the next feeding doesn't go as well." I guess he has a point.

Friday, December 21, 2007

EEG

EEG is scheduled...for Christmas Eve!! We have to be at the General-MidCity for 7:45. We have to wake Lydia between 4 and 5:00 am and keep her awake until the procedure...mission impossible! We'll do what we can...she doesn't usually stay awake for more than an hour at a time. She had a couple of those little episodes again today...I am almost positive that it is not seizures, but I'm glad we're checking it out just in case.

Lydia developed her same nasty congestion again today...it got progressively worse throughout the day...you can now hear her breathing throughout the whole house. It is so pitiful, poor baby! I have been really watching her and her sisters closely because Elise brought home a note from Mother's Day Out last week that someone in her class was diagnosed with RSV. Lydia and Elise both have had runny noses since yesterday. Audrey just woke up a little while ago sounding congested. I'd assumed that Elise's was just her allergies, but I'm not sure. I pray that none of them get the virus. I'd like for them to be healthy for Christmas so that they can enjoy it.

Feeding has gone fairly well today...though the congestion has impacted it. She has some episodes of gagging and spitting up, seemingly due to the sinus drip. I feel so bad for her.

I have lately been getting more and more excited about Elise's speech. I'm not sure that she really sounds any better...I'm just having an easier time figuring out what she's saying. I was so excited (and she was too) tonight to finally figure out a word that she's been saying lately...she sort of grunts and says "au." Tonight she was trying to pull the top off of a marker when she said it. I finally realized she was saying "hard"...like it was too hard for her to do it. It is so funny that she picked up that little grunt that we usually do when we try to do something that is too hard. She has also been doing a lot of repeating (which also helps me to understand what she's saying)...she'll say something, wait for a response, and then say it again...and again, and again. Suzanne says it is good practice for her to repeat things. She has also been trying to put two words together...though not always with words. She'll usually shake her head while saying something...which means no/not/opposite of the word she is saying. Tonight, Grandma was here making a snowman craft with the girls with Ivory Snow...Elise has some sensory issues with texture, so she didn't want anything to do with touching that messy sticky stuff. She kept pointing to the snowman, shaking her head, and saying "touch." which of course meant that she didn't want to touch it. (And yes Suzanne, she said the word touch very clearly!! Exciting!) The /t/ sound has been the focus for a while now...she is starting to be able to vocalize it.

We've also lately been dealing with some behavior issues with Audrey. It is pretty clear that it is from jealousy because of a lack of attention. Since Lydia and Elise need so much, they do seem to get most of the attention at our house. Also, since Elise is starting to do and say much more lately, I notice that we are always watching her closely to see what she's doing and getting very excited about her accomplishments. Audrey has not lashed out at Elise, but she is throwing temper tantrums in an attempt to get attention. We are trying to address those issues while also attempting some preventive measures by spending more quality time with her. Since time is not in real abundance at our house these days, it has been challenging...though I guess that is the way parenting is and should be. We'll just keeping doing the best we can to make all of our girls as happy and healthy as we can.

Please pray that our girls get healthy and feel better soon.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

The Latest...

I'm back...sorry it's been so long...busy, busy, busy!!!

Lydia's feeding has of course run into an obstacle, again! It seems to be an unending cycle...everytime I think it is solved, the reflux strikes again. I am starting to understand the cycle...I guess I'll expect it next time. (It took me long enough!) Once her little body gets accustomed to the "perfect mix," the reflux starts again...so I try to thicken the formula...then she has trouble sucking it from the nipple...and so on and so on. I've also noticed that when she starts to hurt from the reflux, she stops eating as well...she'll sometimes not suck well at all...she'll sometimes suck the milk and not swallow, lets it flow out of her mouth. She's just trying to avoid pain...which none of us can blame her. She doesn't know that she has to eat to live or that she has to gain weight for her body, and most importantly her brain, to grow. She just knows it hurts, and that's not good. Well anyway...here's my new temporary cure: I added an additional 1/8 tsp of formula powder per oz of the previous mixture of ready-to-feed formula and oatmeal. Started that tonight...so far...last two feedings went fairly well. Keep her in your prayers please so that she continues to eat well.

We went to the dr today and she weighed 11 lbs. Sounds great...she's still gaining, but the gain has slowed down...5 1/2 oz in 2 weeks, quite a dive from 11 oz in 5 days last weigh-in. Hopefully, she'll put on some weight with this new trick. Today's appt was to discuss possible seizures. About 2 weeks ago, Martin and I were sitting on the couch...my legs were propped up with Lydia lying on them. About 4-5 times (every 2 minutes or so), she would throw her hands up with a fearful look in her eye and tremble for a couple of seconds. I talked with Susan about it the next morning and she thought it was probably a startle reflex...if she is startled by a loud noise or not being supported well. But, she also thought that if we noticed it to happen again with no apparent cause, we should call the dr. Last night, she was lying on a pillow on the floor and she had the same kind of episode. It was just after she ate... and I'm starting to think now that it may have been related to the reflux....a sudden pain that startles her, because I noticed that she swallowed a few times after it. What stumps me is that she doesn't cry when she does it...it seems to me that if the pain was enough to startle her that much, she would also cry. I thought it was worth checking out. I called Dr Wood's office today and he wanted her to be seen. We saw Dr. Ronnie this afternoon, and he ordered an EEG to determine if it is actually seizures or not. He seems to think that it is probably just a startle reflex, but the test should show for sure. He said that he knew we've been through a lot with her, so it is probably best to check it out. They are trying to get her squeezed in somewhere, so they'll call me back about scheduling an appt.

The thyroid medication has been a bit of a challenge. I have to crush a little pill and mix it with water to give to her. Imagine...she has reflux on her anti-reflux formula mixed with oatmeal, what do you think she does with something as thin as water?? Right! A nightmare the first few times. I am now putting it in a bottle nipple and for some reason (maybe because it is coming out slower...and she has control) she has done better than with the dropper.

Lydia and Jordyn (Tiffany's daughter) were christened together last Sunday. It was a wonderful, beautiful day filled with fun! Martin and I are very excited to be Jordyn's godparents. It also made for a very interesting baptism....transferring babies from arm to arm throughout the ceremony...it was a treat! We are very thankful that Aunt Jo and Uncle Jim were able to join us from California. They also got to make it to see the Broncos play (a big win over Brusly-my home turf...though I am now a full-fledged Bronco fan...:) We are also thankful for the delicious gumbo that Grandma made along with Papa's signature potatoe salad and Granny's delicious bread! Thanks Granny for setting us up in your clubhouse.

I finished buying my last Christmas gift tonight! Yeah!! Martin also started and finished his shopping today....how jealous am I about that?? ...though his list is just a wee bit shorter than mine. I have had a ball shopping this year though! Can't wait for Christmas! We'll have Christmas with the Comeaux's on Christmas Eve and then a Christmas Day debut at our house for Christmas with the Poche's. I hope you all have a very merry Christmas too!!! I'll try to update again before then...

Friday, December 14, 2007

More News

Still feeding well...still sleeping all night (knock on wood) Yeah!

Opthamologist appt today:
The structure of her eyes look fine. The doctor considered her to be a little delayed as far as fixating and tracking...but, she said that babies normally develop that skill at about 2-3 months, so that only puts her about 2 weeks behind as of now. She wants to see her again in about 6 weeks to recheck. If there is any delay, it would be neurologic since her eyes look fine.

New call from Dr. Wood:
The thyroid test was abnormal. In the hospital, Lydia's thyroid test was a touch elevated to threaten hyperthyroidism. Now, her level was fine...but, a different test showed that her body is working harder to produce a hormone to level it out, so she has to begin taking a thyroid hormone pill once a day to prevent hypothyroidism. It is all a little confusing to me. I asked if it could be genetic, and he said it was possible....Tiffany and Ms. Hilda both have issues with thyroid (Martin's sister and mom). I'm sure they could shed more light on what all of this means...Tiff and Ms Hilda-if you can, you can comment on this post to educate us all. Dr. Wood said that he sees this a lot and some babies only have to take the hormone for about 3 months. Because he sees it a lot, he doesn't think this is really related to the other problems we are seeing in her. He wants us to see the pediatric endocrinologist (sp?) Dr. Lutfallah at the Lake.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Lots of News!

Still eating well...since the hole in the nipple since last Thursday night.

Weighed in yesterday...11 oz gain in 5 days!!! Hip! Hip! Hooray! She now weighs 10 lbs. 10.5 oz. Our little heavy weight!! :) She has been sleeping all night since Thursday too. Today, I had to wake her up at ten minutes after 8!!! She was a little piglet...eating about 5- 6 oz at every feeding. Please pray that she keeps all of this up. She even withstood her rowdy sisters playing with her on the floor this evening. She has been great!!!

She had to repeat another blood test while at the dr yesterday. She needed to repeat a thyroid test that was a little elevated when she was in the hospital...still no results from that. It was a terrible experience...2 vein sticks with no luck...2 heel sticks to squeeze out 4 containers of blood. As horrible as it was, we both forgot all about it when she got on the scale. :) As always, the lab techs at the clinic were so kind and patient with us. I am thankful for their care.

PT appt Monday-
Susan was excited to see some improvement from last week. Her neck stiffness has gotten a little better, she was starting to hit some of the toys hanging on her car seat...everything was just a little better, but better at all is good, especially in just a week. She suggested some shiny toys...put jingle bells in a stainless steel bowl....also some cat balls with bells in the middle...hah! :) Susan will be out for 3 weeks with a hysterectomy. Lydia will see Terry, an OT at NTS, while Susan is out.

Susan also watched Elise run (and Audrey....it was wild with all three of them there:) She agreed that she twists at the waist when she runs. She noticed that she does not twist her shoulders while she runs, like most people. She suggested to help her strengthen her shoulders by having her practice reaching up for things.

Opthamologist appt- Friday...I'll try to update after that.

P.S. I am laughing out loud right now because as I type, Lydia is sitting on my lap facing the computer. She keeps kicking the keyboard drawer back in every time I get going. It is hilarious!

Sunday, December 9, 2007

Wow!

Good news to report...this baby's momma decided we would do all that we had to do to fill her belly...and, fill her belly-she has done!! She has taken 4-6 oz. (mostly 5 or 6) at every feeding for the past couple of days (after cutting a hole in the nipples...as of now, we have 2 working nipples that we keep washing between feedings.) She seems to be a different baby...imagine how hungry she was all the time if she is taking this much now! And how about this: She slept from 10:30 last night until 8:30 this morning...what a treat for mom! I can't wait to find out her weight next Tuesday. I am wishing for big numbers!

Friday, December 7, 2007

Today's Sucess

Yes...today's feedings were successful with our new little nipple trick. She drank at least 4 oz (sometimes 5 or 6) at every feeding....every 3 hours and finished it in less than 30 minutes each time. She cried a little at her late afternoon feeding. I hadn't thought of this, but my mom pointed out that it is the last feeding before she takes her Nexium. Perhaps, it is not strong enough in her system at that time. Who knows? I called Dr. Wood today to let him know about her weight yesterday. His nurse called back and said that he wants her to weigh again in 5 days, so we'll go back next Tuesday. I pray that she keeps this up.

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Trials and Tribulations

We went to see Teresa-OT this morning. We talked about feeding difficulties and tried several different nipples. Lydia seemed to do pretty well with the orthodontic nipple, so I took a couple with me. Of course, when I tried it later...not much luck. Lydia has really not been putting down a whole lot lately, so I took her to be weighed this afternoon. Not good news...she gained only 2 oz in the last 10 days. Since she just started having feeding difficulties within the last several days, I would venture to say that she probably had gained some weight and then lost it. Needless to say, I felt very stressed about this situation. I came home absolutely determined to beef her up. I just keep thinking about what every doctor and therapist keeps telling me...weight gain is critical for brain growth. I decided to try cutting nipples again. I just feel desperate. This time, I cut a little hole in the Y cut nipples. It does not gush out as fast as it did when I cut the lines longer last time. So far, so good! She ate 4 oz of formula with 1/4 tsp oatmeal per oz in 20 minutes!! Not sure if cutting the nipple was right or wrong...but, I figure I'll worry about working more on her suck pattern later...right now, she needs to get the food in her tummy. (Teresa....let me know how you feel about this.)

Can't remember if I updated about all of the test results yet...
Chromosome study was normal.
Lactic acid level went down.

Wednesday, December 5, 2007

We're Back

Sorry it's been a few days since I've updated...life has been VERY busy. I've been spending most of my computer time doing work...I've also been trying to keep up with Christmas, though it is coming faster than I can get ready. Thanks to Grandma and Paw-Paw, we have a few decorations up, and I've done a little shopping.

It seems like so much has happened lately. Lydia...my poor Lydia...eating not so well again. I tried to increase the oatmeal to decrease the reflux....she couldn't get it from the nipple. I'm trying all sorts of combinations to get this kink worked out right now because she has not been taking as much formula as she was...only 2-3 oz per most feedings. She did take 4 oz last night, but she also only took 1 oz at a feeding this morning. We will keep working on her! I want her to feel good and eat well again...please pray for that. Dr's and therapists are all concerned that she needs to keep gaining weight because it is critical for brain growth. I wanted to take her to get weighed today after my dentist appt, but she and Elise both fell asleep in the car and I didn't want to disturb them. I'll try to make it there within the next few days to make sure that she is still gaining weight. Thanks a bunch to Granny for keeping Elise and Lydia company while I had my dental appt this morning!

Appointment with Susan-PT on Monday:
Absolutely amazing... it is unbelievable how much Sue-Sue can tell from just looking at and holding a baby. I'll try to remember everything she told me, but as I told her, my brain is having trouble holding onto all of the information lately....suggestions for Lydia from PT, OT, Speech therapists, dr's, etc....suggestions for Elise's speech therapy. I try to incorporate it all, but I realize I fall far shorter than I would like. Here are some things she noticed about Lydia:
She shows a huge preference for turning her head to the right...her daddy says he notices it because she's always "batting left-handed." She does not have the strength to hold her head up for long periods of time...though she is trying. She does actually see and fixate on things, she just is slow to track when they move. Susan thinks that it could be that she has trouble moving her head to the left. She actually sometimes moves only her eyes to follow an object, which Susan says is a 5-month-old skill. Lydia realizes that she can't get her head to move like she wants it to, so she has compensated by moving only her eyes when she really wants to see something. When she doesn't really want to see it (like her momma's face :) she just doesn't follow at all. Susan also noticed that while on her back, Lydia moves her feet a lot...she holds them high in the air sometimes, which is actually another 5-month skill. She doesn't really use her hands like she should at this age. She also noticed that her feet have a little arch...babies are not supposed to have arches in their feet until they are about 2 years old. When you brush the bottom of her feet, her big toe comes up (Dr. Hollman also noticed this and said she didn't like it, but didn't really tell me why.). Susan said it tells her that Lydia's nervous system is on overload (which also causes the arch). This is also what Dr. Superneau eluded to... a possible defect of her nervous system...causes her to cry a lot....makes her feel tense and jittery all the time. Susan said that everything we do with her should be gentle and slow...which makes a lot of sense: she hates when Audrey and Elise get too close real fast and shake her up too much. I was really excited about this: she suggested a toy that she thought would be perfect...and it was already on Santa's list. She also said that she already signed Lydia and me up for an infant massage class that she will be teaching on Saturday mornings starting in January. I think that will be great! Here is the homework she wrote down for us to do (some things related to some suggestions from Teresa -OT)
1- hold her over our legs with her belly between our legs...use gravity to move the middle of her body down so that her head is a little elevated...hold a hand under her chin.
2- practice visual tracking...hold toy 6-8 inches from face (that is how far she can see: her arm's length away) and move slowly a little bit.
3- move her legs in bicycle motion at each diaper change
4- use a donut shape to rest her head in (she suggested a tube sock filled with a towel tied in a circle)...she said that the boppy is too big for her right now.
5- hold her chin to under her jaw and turn to left very gently
6- cross my right leg over my left leg and hold her in the bend of my knee...it is a good supported position for her and it encourages her to turn her head to the left to see me.
7- use black/white/red toys...having trouble finding many of those...they are not as popular as they once were.
8- encourage her to grasp light-weight rattles

Susan said that she felt that Elise and Lydia's conditions were not at all related. None of their symptoms are the same. When you pick up Lydia, her body sort of tries to curl up...whereas Elise was so loosey-goosey, all of her body was so relaxed. In fact, I told her that Elise still doesn't have an arch in her foot, and she said that she never will. It's just part of the low tone. She thinks she may need to re-evaluate Elise again soon just to give us some more tips about things to do with her. She said she may need some type of arch supports or something. I also want her to see her anyway...Elise is trying to start running some, and she twists a lot at the waist when she runs. It is the cutest thing you've ever seen, but I don't think it is exactly the correct form. Granny likes to tell this story...when Lydia was in the hospital, she was walking around with Elise, and a lady just burst out laughing when she saw her...she said, "Look at that girl twist. It took me half my life to get a twist like that."

Elise's speech has been good lately. I really feel like we are communicating more. I feel like I am learning more of her words better so that I can understand what she is telling me. Recently, I had felt like she was doing a lot of groping for sounds without really completing any one sound to communicate, but that is much better again. Our latest fun is that she'll say what Santa says (when she's in the mood)...Ho, Ho, Ho.

Audrey is doing well too....learning more and more... and teaching all of her baby dolls. One of her favorite things these days is rhyming words. She makes up rhymes all of the time. Her daddy and I can be sure that she has never heard any foul language because she is so proud of herself for making all of her silly rhymes...we can tell that she has no idea when she says words that she shouldn't be saying....I'll leave that to your imagination. She also has been trying to sound out and write words lately. We were hanging out at Papa's the other day, and this really impressed me. She wrote this word: Mule...and proudly said, "Look, Mom...I wrote Emily!" Not even close, obviously, but...the teacher in me saw that as very impressive inventive spelling for a 3-yr old.

Time to wake Lydia for a feeding...she has portraits scheduled this afternoon. Keep your fingers crossed that she is in good spirits for them. :)

Saturday, December 1, 2007

Our Next Report

Dr. Wood left a message last night...he had the lab do a special test on the blood so that he could get the results quickly...there was no acidosis and her lactic acid level dropped from 6 to 3.8 ...not sure what all that means, but he said he feels 100% better...so, I do too.

I started adding a little more oatmeal to her bottles yesterday...it seems to have helped so far. As long as she is not having burping difficulties, she is not crying when she eats anymore. Last night she took a 4 oz bottle without burping at all, and she was very uncomfortable while trying to eat...but, I think that was the cause and not the reflux. I only added a small amount of oatmeal...she now gets 3/4 tsp per 4 oz bottle. So, she can still successfully suck it out of the nipple. Her suck seems to be getting better, though I still have to help her make a good seal by holding her cheeks and chin and to give her some resistance by pulling on the bottle when she sucks.

She is still doing some smiling and cooing...so much fun! Her favorite time seems to be 10 pm til midnight...not exactly the time I would plan. We'll work on that. :)

Thursday, November 29, 2007

More News

Dr. Wood called today...we have to repeat the lactic acid blood test again. We'll do that tomorrow. Please say a prayer for an easy time.

Ms. Anne Nador, the Early Steps evaluator came to our house this evening to evaluate Lydia to determine if she will qualify for services. She feels that there is a need...especially with her medical concerns. She thinks that she would most benefit from an OT or speech therapist who specializes in oral motor issues. OT would probably be better because they could address some of her other concerns too. Ms. Nador felt that Lydia's muscle tone was low...though most other specialists have not seen that as a huge issue for her. She thought it was good that we are getting the ball rolling so early, and even if all other symptoms disappear when the reflux disappears...we'll just stop therapy if she starts to develop normally. It doesn't hurt anything to get her some help now...either way.

OT Appt

Lydia saw Teresa, OT today at Woman's Center for Wellness. We learned lots of exercises to try with her to strengthen her mouth...soft palate and tongue so that she can make a better seal and suction when she eats. She also noticed that Lydia's lower back seemed tight, probably because she hasn't yet spent a lot of time pulling her head up when she is on her tummy. She showed me how to stretch her back and her hips to help with that. She suggested as much tummy time as possible...the more she starts to pick her head up, the more she will strengthen her neck (among other parts), which will help with feeding. We discussed the fact that Lydia has been crying more and more when she eats again. I'm leaning towards the fact that it is reflux again and not gas. I think I will probably try to thicken her formula more soon to see if that helps and if she can still get it out of the nipple. We see Teresa again next Thursday. I also got a call from the Early Steps Evaluator a little while ago...hopefully we will be able to connect this afternoon to begin the evaluation process. Dr. Wood called last night to let me know that he had not gotten in touch with Dr. Superneau yet...he didn't want me to think he had forgotten...as if??? I know he is always thinking about Lydia...her chart is always nearby...I know he wouldn't have forgotten. Hopefully we'll hear news from Dr. Superneau soon about the lactic acid elevation. In the meantime, she is still alert and content more...usually only cries when she eats... :( Her tired cry is short-lived and she usually goes to sleep well. I just hope that she starts to sleep thorugh the night soon. I'm running on low fuel lately. She had 2 good nights that she slept the whole night...but back to her usual routine now. She wakes somewhere between 1 and 4, and she's usually up for about an hour...not too bad, considering how far we've come.

Wednesday, November 28, 2007

Appt with Dr Alonso

Lydia saw Dr. Alonso this morning, and we didn't really get any new information. She was happy with the amount of weight she gained since her last visit...a full pound in less than a month. She was also happy to hear that she is taking 4 oz at every feeding. She encouraged me to give Lydia as much as possible...try to increase to 5 oz when possible and try to increase amount of oatmeal to see how she does. She already does sometimes take 5 oz, so I will continue to offer it to her when she seems hungry enough for it. Most of the time, though, she finishes the 4 oz just under the wire (30 minutes) so I don't give her any more. Thirty minutes has been the max feeding time suggested because if she eats for longer than that, she burns more calories than she takes in. I don't think I'll try to increase the oatmeal just yet...I want her to be successful at eating for a little while longer before I shake up her world again. We are scheduled to see Dr. Alonso again in January.

Elise's last day of therapy for the semester at LSU:
Our finale meeting today went well! Elise's therapist, Megan, showed me lots of data that she collected during the semester. She tracked Elise's immitated words and spontaneous words throughout the semester. She graphed that Elise uttered 48 words spontaneously during her sessions. 48 words on her own!! I was amazed. I had to ask to clarify a few times because I could hardly believe it. I know that Elise says immitated words a lot, but I was impressed that she used 48 different words spontaneously. She didn't add up her immitated words, but that number was significantly greater. Elise met many of Megan's goals for her for the semester, and some goals will transfer to the new therapist that starts with her in January. I also inquired about some sounds that she said she was working on with her.../b/ /p/ /m/. I told her that she once used those sounds a lot, but I now I don't hear them as much. It bothers me when she loses sounds and/or words, but the supervisor Ms. Kauffman was not discouraged by that. She said that as Elise experiments with different new sounds and words, she will say others less but it doesn't mean that she has lost them persay. I asked how long that would be considered appropriate, but she didn't want to put a time limit on it. She said we should work at Elise's timelines. So...some good information, and some advice to just keep trucking on the way we are. Megan gave us a "break packet" for us to work on during the semester break. So, we'll become the therapists for a while. Also, Suzanne, Elise's Early Steps therapist, may try to see her twice a week in the interum.
A celebration: Elise always sleeps with a book in her bed each night...in the mornings, she usually hands it to me to pick it up. Yesterday morning (and today), when she handed it to me, she said, "book up." It is not very often that we hear her put two words together. It is exciting to celebrate all of the little steps along the way to developing her language skills!

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

3 month Check-up

Lydia had her 3-month check-up this morning with Dr. Wood. 9 lbs. 13 oz. Not as much as I expected, but we'll take it. Dr. Wood checked back and she has gained a full pound in 25 days. He said it is slow-gaining, but it is gaining nonetheless, so we are pleased. She has not fallen off of the growth chart, so that is encouraging. Her height, weight, and head-circumference are all still in the 5th percentile. He was encouraged by my report....smiling and cooing more, though he didn't seem convinced that she is "caught up" yet. He commented that her head control looks a lot better and he thought her tone looked much better too. I told him about the excessive stools, so he checked a diaper...he said it looked like a normal stool. He thinks she is stooling more because she is eating more. He did already get the results back from the lactic acid and pyruvic acid tests. He doesn't really know how to interpret the results, so he'll pass it along to Dr. Superneau...but, he did tell me that the lactic acid was more elevated than the last time and the pyruvic acid went down. I'm not sure what it means, but I know that he told me last time that if both levels rose together he would be less concerned. Since one went up and one went down, I assume that will lend more valid information. Dr. Wood was going to call him, though he expects it to be a couple of days before they actually connect. Our appt with Dr. Superneau is a couple of days after Christmas, so I know we'll know more then. I'm hoping that Martin will be able to come too, since he'll be out of school. We may get some enlightening news. Until then, Dr. Wood suggested that we keep "keeping on."

Monday, November 26, 2007

Lydia's Update

Lydia is still doing well...eating like a little piglet. Yeah! She is now up to 4-5 oz. per feeding. I still haven't figured out what is making her cry while she eats so often. She has also been wearing out her diapers lately...8-10 poops per day. I'm going to ask Dr. Wood about that tomorrow. Also, her congestion has seemed to move to her chest. It seems to also be getting better too though. Fewhh!! It has been so fun to see her coo and smile. She is happier some times than others...like all of us, I guess. It seems to be triggered by our interaction with her lately...not 100% about that, but I'm more encouraged than I was a few weeks ago. Also, today I tried to use the bottle to see if she was tracking with her eyes. I held it in front of her, then I move it slowly left and right. She followed it every time...a little slow to get there, but she did it. That's encouraging.

Upcoming appointments:
Tuesday- Nov 27- Lydia- Dr. Wood 9:30 (3 month check-up) I am expecting at least 10 lbs.! We'll see!
Wednesday- Nov 28- Lydia Dr. Alonso 8:45; Elise- speech (last day for this semester) 10:30
Thursday- Nov 29- Lydia- OT -Theresa Miller 10:30
Friday- Nov 30-Elise- Early Steps Speech 9:00
Monday- Dec 3- Lydia- Dr. Williams (Opthamologist) 8:00; Lydia- PT -Susan Ducote- 9:30

Friday, November 23, 2007

Thankful!

Oh...how very thankful we are! I feel so very lucky this year to be surrounded by such love and to have such a wonderful family. God has been so good to us. So many gracious people have offered their support, help, love, and prayers. And so many of those prayers are being answered every day. I can't tell you how happy I am and how blessed I feel. Take a look at some of the prayers being answered...smiles...trying to hold up her head...and sisters that love each other so much! What fun!

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Fwehh!!

We went for the blood test this morning, and it was much easier than expected. I was wrong about not being able to have the tournequet on for the test...that was the lactic acid; the test that needed to be repeated was the pyruvic acid. The lab tech got it in one stick...big thanks for all of the prayers...I know that's the only reason it was so much easier.

Something a little irritating though....the tech called the lab where the test is done to be sure that they followed protocol to make sure that we wouldn't have to do it again, and the real reason for the repeat was revealed: the people at the lab spilled some of the sample last time and didn't have enough to complete the test. It had nothing to do with being frozen or anything else like the lady had told me on the phone yesterday. That could really get to me, but I'm going to choose to let it go...it is over and Lydia is fine.

Last time we had these tests run (when Lydia was in the hospital), the results took a couple of weeks. I assume that the same will be true this time. I will definitely post when I get any information about it.

Happy Thanksgiving to everyone!!

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Frustrated!!

You won't believe this...The BR Clinic called today...the blood taken for one of the amino acid tests could not be used for the test when it reached the lab. It was supposed to be frozen, but it was thawed when they got it, so it has to be redone. I have calmed down a little now...but, I was so angry when I got that call this afternoon. The lady on the phone from the clinic assured me that they did everything they were supposed to do...somewhere between the clinic and the lab where it was to be tested---there was a mistake. Bottom line: somebody screwed up, and now Lydia has to pay for it. We'll probably go back tomorrow to do it...please pray hard that it won't be difficult. The problem has been that the test calls for no tourniquet...well Lydia's blood pressure is not strong enough for the blood to flow freely into the needle without the tourniquet. Not to mention that her veins are so tiny that they are hard for the lab techs to find. It took four sticks last time...and with each stick they had to dig around in her arm several times to actually get into the vein. She went through patterns of screams and exhausted wimpers...I'm crying now just thinking about her having to do it again. Please ask God to be with her for the test and that the techs have no problem getting the blood needed...and that it is taken care of the way it should be afterwards so that we don't have to repeat it again.

Lydia has still been eating well...she stills cries several times while she eats. It doesn't look like the same fearful painful reflux that we used to see, but I'm not sure if it may be a mild version of that. I hope not. I've been really hopeful about how well her feedings have gone lately. It could also be a little gas in her tummy...she has been having a little trouble burping lately. We'll see...I'll continue to watch her to see what it is. I think her congestion is finally on the upswing. She still sounds mildly congested, but it is not near as bad as it was.

Thank you for your prayers, and please continue to remember her in them.

Monday, November 19, 2007

A Break for Mom

Yeah! Today was a great day...so I think. Elise and I left this morning for OT...then straight to speech at LSU. I got back in time to fix the girls lunch and welcome my nanny, Aunt Linda and my grandmother who came to stay with the girls today to give me a day out. What a treat! I spent lots of time and lots of money at Toys-R-Us to put the first dent in my Christmas shopping. I think I single-handedly kept them in business for today. Anyway, I wasn't with Lydia for most of the day...but heard that she did great!! She ate well...rested well...and did some cooing and smiling!?! I am so proud of her!

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Our Weekend

It is so nice to be able to report Lydia eating well. Keep your fingers crossed that this continues. She has been eating about 4 oz. almost every feeding...sometimes even 5 or 6oz. Wow! I am a little hesitant to give her as much as she seems to want because of the uncharacteristic vomit she had Friday night...but, no vomiting since then. Thank you God. She has also been doing a little more smiling...it is so cute! Still hard to really say if it is in response to anything we're doing (still don't see any eye contact)...but, we're enjoying it just the same. Martin and I discussed that it may be one of the many angels she has loving her in heaven that may be making her smile.

Audrey and Elise seem to be recovering well from the bronchitis....still fighting runny noses and coughs, but they're dealing with it like a couple of little champs.

Speaking of champs... the Zachary Broncos won 1st place in the Wedge Kyes Tournament this weekend!! Keep your fingers crossed that their successful undefeated season continues! Thanks to Grandma and Paw-Paw for keeping the girls for us to go out and celebrate a little after the championship game. It was a much needed nice time.
Go Broncos!

Friday, November 16, 2007

What a Day!

To start things off, Lydia slept ALL NIGHT last night...even with Mommy in charge! She took her last bottle at 8:30 last night (and went to sleep a little after 9:00) and slept until 6:30 this morning...yes, your eyes are not deceiving you...she slept 9 1/2 hours! I hope it is the start of something new and exciting! Although, we were up at about 5:00 with Audrey...bad cough, fever, bad congestion...sounds familiar, right? So, I made her an appointment to see the doctor at 4:00. Meanwhile, Lydia continued to eat well and have another good day. We found out the inevitable at the doctor's office...Audrey has bronchitis too. Poor baby...she really started to feel bad on the way home...fever chills, not able to breathe from the congestion.

We also found out that our little Lydia gained 3 oz. since Tuesday...tipping the scale at 9 lbs. 5.5 oz. Yippee! Dr. Wood said that brings joy to his heart. He tells us that he thinks about us all the time. I think he is just as concerned as we are about our Lydia. I also had him check her out to be sure that she doesn't have any signs of the bronchitis. He gave her a clean bill of health, except of course for the cold that is going on 3 weeks now. Instructions are to keep her away from her big sisters...as much as humanly possible.

Then...tonight, the stress really hit...feeding Lydia her last bottle before bed...she was sort of falling asleep...I was trying to get her to take just a little more. I put her on my shoulder for a burp...and---she threw up more than I could ever imagine her little body to hold. I called the nurse and they suggested giving her Pedialite...which I don't have at home...and Martin is in Eunice. So, Grandma and Paw-Paw are on their way over to bring us some. In the meantime, I am attempting to give her a little more milk because I suspect that the puking was from her reflux. If it happens again, I'll know that it may be a virus...and I'll start with the Pedialite. Our poor girl just can't go very long without some sort of excitement!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Today's Report

Lydia had a much better day today...hooray! She ate well at every feeding (same combination that we've recently found to work for her), she was alert and happy (not crying...that means happy to us!) for a little while after she ate each time, then she went right to sleep when she got tired. She was a little cranky this evening...but, she's entitled. She fell asleep after her last bottle and has been snoozing ever since. I pray that this good day is followed by a good night...one day/hour/minute at a time! :)

Elise still felt pretty yucky this morning, but I think she's on the upswing tonight. She's got two doses of antibiotic in her system, so hopefully she'll be completely well soon. Also, please help us pray that no one else in our house catches the same sickness.

Audrey has been a complete sweetheart...so gentle and sweet with her sisters (well, Lydia at least :) Grandma was here tonight helping us (Thank you!) and she was getting ready to bathe Lydia for me. Audrey hopped up to say that she wanted to help...then, she said, "I really wish I could bathe her by myself. I really wish I could be the momma to Lydia." Not so fast, my sweet girl. Soon enough! When her teacher asked recently what she wanted to be when she grew up, she said, "A mommy." Her daddy says she'll get her chance...when she's about 40.

Speaking of Daddy, he is a rather busy bee these days. He is on Day 3 of a ten-day spree of leaving before everyone wakes up and coming home after everyone's asleep. All of us girls really miss him. With every car door we heard in the neighborhood today, Audrey screamed, "There's Daddy," and ran to the back door. We're going to have to find a way to see him in some way soon.

Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Change of Plans Today

Elise developed a cough and a high fever (103.2) with the runny nose that she's had the past few days, so we had to skip Lydia's OT today to take Elise to the doctor. Elise has bronchitis. Dr. Wood prescribed Zithromax for her to get rid of it. Elise was such a big girl during her exam today...let me tell you what a big deal that is...the last few times we've gone to the doctor, she refuses to even go in the door that leads to the back where the examining rooms are. She usually stands in the doorway and says, "no, no, no," even if she is not to be the patient that day. Today, she did not shed one tear....even during the entire exam! Dr. Wood and I were both so proud of her!!!

While we were there, I asked for a weight check for Lydia. She weighed 9 lbs. 2.5 oz....4 oz. gain since last Tuesday...could be better. :( Then, Dr. Wood ordered the blood tests for the lactic acid and pyruvic acid and the chromosome study...from Dr. Superneau's request. So, here we go again! It is so heartwrenching for a mommy to watch them poke and prod and try again and again to get a vein that will give the amount of blood that they need for the test. It is no picnic for the lab techs either...they feel for her just as much as I do, I think. After the 4th stick, I could hear the tech mumbling something, but I couldn't really understand what she was saying. Just when I realized she was saying, "Come on Jesus. Make this blood flow. I know you feel for this baby too. Come on Jesus," the blood started to flow easily into the syringe. My eyes filled up with tears. They were so appreciative to me for being patient with them...but I know that they were doing the best they could and that it hurt them just as much as it hurt me. My little Lydia is a tough cookie...she doesn't have a choice, with all we've put her through. The lab techs said that they hoped they didn't see us come in there again....and, of course, I agreed.

Lydia had a tough feeding time last night, but things have been better today. I suspect that all the times that she sucks and can't get anything from the bottle...she is losing weight that she gains when does actually eat well. It seems like a revolving door...we'll keep at it to be sure that she continues to gain.

Just a little side piece of info...
My wonderful husband gave me a gift of a night out with the girls for my birthday. He actually called some of my friends and set it up himself. He decided that he would keep the girls himself (unaware that Granny had gone out of town for the weekend...I think he was planning to get help from her.) Anyway, he did a fantastic job! All girls were happy, clean, fed, and seemed to have fun! And...here's the kicker: Lydia is obviously turning out to be a daddy's girl because that is the ONLY night that she slept all night...he fed her at 11:30, then she slept until 7:30 the next morning. So, I thought- GREAT! That is the start of something new....wrong! The last two nights, when mom was in charge, she woke up between 3:00 and 3:30 for her feeding just like usual. I guess I can only continue to hope! The better news, though, is that she was awake for only about 45 minutes during that time as opposed to her regular 2-3 hours. That at least gives mom a little more shut-eye.

Monday, November 12, 2007

Appt with Dr. Hollman Today

Just as every other doctor and therapist has told us, Dr. Hollman said that she would love to tell us a definitive diagnosis....but, she can't at Lydia's age. She is definitely concerned with her delays (lack of eye contact and tracking; lack of responsive smiles; not picking up her head in the prone position; feeding issues), but we can only wait to see how Lydia develops to determine if there is a specific cause and what her prognosis will be. She said, as a neurologist, she tells patients that it is good news when there isn't a diagnosis (from an MRI, etc.) because usually if there is a diagnosis- it is really bad. I asked what type of possible cause she would suspect, and she said some type of metabolic disorder...which is what we are testing for with Dr. Superneau. She was pleased with Elise's progress and happy that she is getting so much therapy. She pointed out that we also don't have a diagnosis for Elise. She jokingly said, "I'm sorry we've been so much help to you." I asked if she thought the two conditions were related, and she wasn't convinced of that...since the symptoms are somewhat different. She too said that she didn't consider Lydia's muscle tone terribly low. I asked about autism since I've seen so much about it in the news lately...I thought it may be a possibility for Lydia. She said that it is possible down the road, but it does not typically present itself in this way. She said that most kids with autism develop normally for the first year of life. There are usually no signs of anything wrong until about 2 years of age. Interestingly, though, she said that there is truly an epidemic of autism right now...when she started practicing 24 years ago, about 1 in 200 of her patients were autistic...now about 25% of her patients have autism. That was an interesting fact to me. Dr. Hollman wants Lydia to see an optomologist to have her eyes checked to see if that is the reason she is not making eye contact...something some friends had suggested might be the issue with that. We'll find out. She also was happy that I had started the paperwork for Early Steps to begin getting Lydia some therapy. She also said that PT with Susan Ducote is a good idea...I told her that if I was going to get a physical therapist...I wouldn't see anyone else...she is without-a-doubt -- the best in the field, in my opinion. She suggested that we do OT through Early Steps and use insurance for PT with Susan. Dr. Hollman wants to see Lydia again in 2 months, and she wants to see Elise again in 6 months. I told her how all of Elise's speech therapists have said that she will probably need therapy well into elementary school, and then once she begins speaking fluently, she'll be fine. She also pointed out, though, that kids with speech problems usually develop reading problems when they get to elementary school...so we should be prepared for that.

Feeding Update-
After traveling across town on Saturday for the Y-cut nipples, Lydia was still not able to get the formula with oatmeal out of the nipple. After many trials, we've found this combination: formula (without added calories) and 1/8 teaspoon of oatmeal per ounce (which adds calories too) with the #3 faster flow nipple. I can't figure out why she can get it out of the #3 nipple and not the y-cut since the hole is clearly bigger, but nothing with Lydia has really been predictable. I will probably soon try to add more calories to the formula again, but it was just too thick for her that way...and she was still having reflux. The oatmeal has helped to decrease the reflux (for now, anyway).

Saturday, November 10, 2007

The cycle continues...

Sigh....as always, every time we change something...Lydia's reflux seems to get better for a few days. The change in formula actually lasted for almost a week. Then, last night she began refluxing again at each feeding. Since she is taking the Nexium in the evenings now, she refluxed soon after getting the medicine in her system. Sigh...again...so, now I will go to Babies-r-Us and get the Y-cut nipples (hopefully, they have them this time...I didn't follow up on it last time because I thought the new formula was doing the trick without oatmeal). We'll try adding a little oatmeal to see if it helps...and we pray that she is able to suck it out of the nipple. We'll see.

Friday, November 9, 2007

Appointments next week

Monday- Elise and Lydia- Dr. Hollman 8:00 (neurologist); Elise- speech- LSU 10:30
Tuesday- Lydia- OT (Theresa) 11:20
Wednesday- Elise- LSU- Speech- 10:30
Thursday- Lydia- Early Steps Meeting- 9:30
Friday- Elise- Speech- Suzanne (at home) 9:00

Pharyngogram

Today's procedure was brief and painless. It took all of about 10 minutes...Lydia drank two different mixtures of barium and they x-rayed her throat to watch her swallow. The speech therapist said that she did perfectly. There was no evidence of any problems...one more thing ruled out! :)

I have been praying hard that her congestion clears up soon...please help me to pray specifically for that. It is so heart-breaking to see and hear her like that.

Thursday, November 8, 2007

One more thing...

I forgot this bit of encouraging information from the OT...she said that she didn't consider Lydia's tone to be terribly low. She said she would consider it to be on the low end of normal. That is good news! She did also say, though, that she felt that Lydia needs to be monitored. In another 6 months...she might feel differently...again- only Lydia will be the one to let us know...we'll continue to play the waiting game.

OT Visit

Lydia saw Theresa today...OT at the Woman's Center to Wellness. She noticed that Lydia does have an efficient suck intermittently. She suggested that we try a different latex nipple to see if she can suck better using that. She was pleased that Lydia is doing some "talking" though she thought that there is a need for concern because she does not make eye contact. She suggested that we use the boppy pillow to lay her on because her body will feel secure enough that she can move her arms and legs freely, which she should be doing developmentally right now. When she placed her on the boppy, she was pleased with the way that she did pick up her arms and legs. We will try to use that more at home...time on the floor has been scarce because her big sisters love her SO much...I'm afraid they might love her to death. :) She suggested that we put her in the play pin...I don't know why I hadn't thought of that before. She thought that her inconsistent suck could be attributed to clogged nipples, though I don't really think that has been the problem...since she also had the same problems before we thickened the formula. She also thought that her problem with congestion could be caused from the reflux...who knows? All we know is that she is absolutely miserable with her congestion...I wish there was something else I could do. I asked about the possiblity of cleft palate, and she thought it was not likely because she has never had milk come out through her nose, which would be a sign of cleft palate.

Lydia's day today was really good! This evening, she ate her evening bottle...4 oz., I might add. Then she sat in my lap and looked around for a good while. She whimpered to go to sleep...so I gave her a pacifier and put her right down. She actually seemed at peace for a large part of the day...when her congestion wasn't giving her big fits.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

Lydia's Day

Today, Lydia ate pretty well! The new formula is great so far...I only recognized one episode of reflux today. I switched her to the #3 nipple (faster flow/ bigger hole) because I thought she was doing better with it. I plan to bring both the #2 and #3 to her OT appt tomorrow to see what she thinks. Lydia's biggest and saddest problem right now is a serious case of congestion. She sounds absolutely terrible right now as she tries to get some rest. The frustrating part is that she can't have any medicine for it...not until she's 2 years old...unbelievable, right? We are using the humidifier, saline drops and nose suctioner as much as we can, but she is just not getting any relief. Poor baby! I guess it got worse from the cold weather we had today...we went to Elise's therapy at LSU...though, if she were any more bundled up- she'd be a cocoon.

I'll try to update tomorrow to let you know what we find out from the OT.

2 Witches and a Black Cat








Halloween was a lot of fun! Momma and Lydia handed out candy while Daddy and big sisters went trick-or-treating. Elise went to two houses and had enough...she joined Mom and Lydia while Daddy and Audrey roamed the neighborhood. All Poche's had a grand Halloween time!

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Weight check

Lydia weighed 8 lbs. 14.5 oz. on Dr. Wood's scale today...that's + 1 ounce since Friday. Not good...but at least she didn't lose, which is what I was afraid of since she had such a difficult weekend. We started the Enfamil AR last night, and she seemed to do well...she drank it from a #2 nipple and didn't appear to have many episodes of reflux. Again, it has been the trend for her to do well each time we try something new...and then she has fallen back into the same pattern after a few days. Please help us pray that that does not happen this time. I pray that feeding becomes a happy time for our Lydia, as it should be for all babies.

Monday, November 5, 2007

THANK YOUS

I want to thank you all for all the help you have offered to our family over the past weeks. Since this all began, I have been bombarded with so many offers...it is overwhelming. I feel like we are so loved. I also KNOW that everyone else is just as busy as we are...life moves at a fast pace these days for everyone. You are tremendous and we are truly blessed for you to offer time that you probably don't have to give.

I hope I don't forget anyone....but I want to thank each person specifically because I want you to know how much I appreciate it....

Aunt Becky, Aunt Linda, Sabrina, Melissa, Bridget, Tiffany ("Tiff"), Jennifer, Stacy, Rose, Tammy, Allison, Coach-n-Dee, Aunt Leigh, Aunt Shelley...

Tiffanie ("T") and her carpool/babysitting is a great help, as always!

Lydia's godmother, Jennie (ie. "Nanny J") has been a great confident and help when I need her!

Stephanie has been a godsend of information for me! I am so thankful that God placed us in the same line of work. Her daughter has many of the same difficulties as Lydia and Elise, and she has so many suggestions and contacts that are helpful.

And, of course, the grandparents...

All of Papa's offers...and Paw-Paw's help...

Granny's help running here and there (and everywhere), help with housework, and financial help...we are very lucky!

And Grandma's "drop everything" attitude that keeps her coming back anytime she hears an "I'm not so-ok" sound in my voice. This probably started with my birth! Many people would say that I am spoiled, and I agree. :) But, I only pray that my girls will feel just as "spoiled" as I have in my 32 (did I just say 32?) years.

Not to mention all of the prayers and prayer lines that she has been on...we know that prayer is the best medicine!

THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU and THANK YOU!!

Again, if I have forgotten anyone, I apologize...it's only because SO many people have offered to come to our rescue during this difficult time. I appreciate it so much, and beware...as difficult as it is...I may start to take you up on some of the offers. I usually call on my mom after turning down other offers...because, well, she's my mom, right? But, she needs a break too...she's got health and sanity to preserve just like me!

Appt with Dr. Alonso (GI)

Dr. Alonso was still pretty perplexed by Lydia today. She thinks that we do need to try some things to get the reflux in check, but she feels that reflux is not her main problem. She thinks that there is also something neurological causing her so many difficulties, and I'm beginning to agree with that. Not only does she have a poor suck, but she has an inconsistent poor suck. I've been playing the trial and error game trying to find the right nipple with the right amount of oatmeal with the right formula. At her first feeding this morning, she took 3 oz of formula with 1 tsp of oatmeal with a #3 faster flow nipple. It was a challenge for her, but she got it down. For her second feeding, I tried exactly the same combination, and she couldn't get a drop out...seemingly sucking profusely. Dr. Alonso suggested that maybe she is more tired at certain times of the day...I will begin keeping a better log of her feedings to watch for that. A couple of people have suggested the possibility of a cleft palate...Dr. Alonso checked for that and didn't see it to be an issue...she said, unless it was farther back in her mouth where she couldn't see. I will look into this further with the next few doctors/therapists that we see.

Dr. Alonso did suggest a few things for reducing the reflux. She switched the Nexium to powder instead of the capsule that we were doing, and switched it to the evening instead of the morning. We will also begin using Enfamil AR (anti-reflux...already has cereal in the formula). She said to start with no oatmeal in the formula and see how she does. Then if she seems to need it, gradually add oatmeal to a maximum of 1/2 tsp per ounce. She wants to see her again the week after Thanksgiving...her appt is Nov 28 at 8:45. Dr. Alonso is most concerned with her weight gain. Lydia gained 7 oz. in 10 days according to her scale...not as much as she would like to see. I am going to take her to Dr. Wood's office tomorrow for a weight check to be sure that she hasn't lost since Friday with all of the tribulations over the weekend. She was 8 12.5 on Alonso's scale today, and 8 13.5 on Wood's scale on Friday. If she does not consistently gain enough weight, Dr. Alonso will find more ways to add calories to her intake. She suggested adding vegetable oil to add 7 calories. She doesn't want to do that yet, but it is a possibility depending on her weight gain.

Saturday, November 3, 2007

Same old, same old

Well, today I set out to get new Y-cut Dr. Brown's nipples and follow the suggestions of the speech therapist...powerize the oatmeal and decrease to 1 tsp per ounce. First of all- no Y-cut nipples at Babies-r-us, so I bought a different brand cross-cut design (not much different I'm sure). Well, just as I suspected, she was still not able to get the milk from the nipple. So frustrating for me and more importantly for her. Then, I gave her some milk without oatmeal so that she could at least get something into her system. She did fairly well with that surprisingly...because when we tried it during the night, she refluxed every time she tried to suck. I then tried a little less oatmeal with the formula...she was able to get about 1/2 ounce that way. I guess I will continue to try to find the right mix of ingredients for her little cocktails. The mission continues...

Friday, November 2, 2007

A Happy Note

Amidst all of the craziness with Lydia, I haven't given an update on Elise in a while. Her 4 hours of speech therapy per week are really paying off. She is making so much progress, and all therapists who are involved with her (as well as mom and dad) are very proud of how far she has come. She still has a long road ahead, but you can tell from her that she feels more empowered now that she has some abilities to communicate. Suzanne (her Early Steps therapist) has begun analyzing the sounds and words that Elise produces to try to figure out some patterns so that we can understand her better. It is fascinating how much she knows about language and how she can draw conclusions based on Elise's enunciations. I can usually (though not always) understand what Elise is saying in context. It is fun to see her eyes light up when she knows that we know what she is saying. We have lots of fun exercises to work on with her at home and her teachers at Parent's Day Out are also working on some things with her. It is a team effort, and Elise is lucky to have such great people involved in her care!

Audrey is doing very well also...loving life at the "big school." She had a fairy tale day at school today, and was precious dressed in her Cinderella costume. She has been a tremendous help to mommy through all of this. I sometimes feel guilty because I treat her like a "go-getter," but I think she enjoys it most of the time.

Upcoming Appointments

Just to let you know the appointments scheduled soon....and partly to help me keep track:

Monday, November 5th- Dr. Alonso (GI) 11:30
Elise- speech- LSU 10:30
Wednesday, November 7th- Elise's quarterly Early Steps Meeting 10:30
Elise- speech - LSU 10:30
Thursday, November 8th- OT consult: Theresa Miller- Woman's Center for Wellness 9:40
Friday, November 9th- Pharyngogram- Outpatient procedure at OLOL 9:30
(note to self: need to reschedule Elise's speech therapy for later time Friday)

Monday, November 12th- Dr. Hollman (neurologist)

Feeding Difficulties

Ok...now I'm thinking that the poor suck causing not enough food to get in...is not the problem. Yesterday, the repeated cycle was this: she would suck on a bottle for 5-10 minutes and get nothing (not a drop) and be perfectly happy. Then, as soon as she would get some milk into her mouth, she would scream...mouth full of milk spilling over. It is a wonder that she got anything down. I was so frustrated watching her obviously hurt like this...I made some phone calls today. I called the speech therapist that we saw at the Lake and she gave me some suggestions. I need to decrease the amount of oatmeal (1 tsp per ounce instead of 2 tsp per ounce) and I need to powderize the oatmeal in a blender before adding it to the bottle. I'll also have to buy new Y-cut nipples to replace the ones that I cut to make the hole bigger. I felt like this was probably the wrong thing to do...but, I was just trying to make it easier for her to actually get some nutrition. Hopefully, the new tricks that Sarah told me about will help. She also suggested a Pharyngogram (sp?), which we scheduled for next week. It is a test that examines the swallowing...she drinks barium while they x-ray her throat to be sure that there are no swallowing or aspirating problems.

I also made an appointment with Dr. Wood today...mostly to get a weight, and to run by him all the new issues and ideas. She gained 8 ounces in the last nine days to bring her to 8 lbs. and 13.5 oz. He was pleased and said that I can continue to let her go about 4 hours between feedings as long as she wants to. I've found lately that the oatmeal seems to be filling her up more...when I try to wake her and feed her after three hours, she is still totally out and not interested in even trying to suck. He and I discussed possible reasons for the new feeding problems:
-maybe the Nexium was still in her system last weekend, which is why she did well with that in conjunction with the oatmeal...and maybe it left her system earlier in the week. We started it back Wednesday, so maybe it is taking a couple more days for it to kick in again. I am cautiously hopeful that full strength Nexium together with the oatmeal will bring her some relief...Please God!
-maybe her cold and congestion make her do the gagging that she's doing when she eats sometimes...it certainly can't help the situation.
-maybe neurological factors...
He checked her out again and agreed with me that she is not making eye contact and not smiling in response. He said that by 10 weeks, she should definitely be smiling. These are totally different problems that what Elise had...she was smiling by 6 weeks and was very animated. I didn't even suspect any problems with her tone until she was 6 months old. I'm not trying to diagnose anything by saying that...it's just an observation. We'll continue to play the waiting game with all of this...and give our worries to God. No worry...just prayer!

Thursday, November 1, 2007

Life since the PH Probe Test

Since Lydia's PH Probe test on Monday, we have not seen a real change in how she feels. As we suspected, we shouldn't have held high expectations about the oatmeal in the formula. It seems that everytime we try something new, she seems a lot better for a few days...then, she falls back into the same crying patterns. It figures that she seemed to reflux much more since we've been home...so that it didn't appear on the test. I put her back on the Nexium yesterday, so hopefully that in conjunction with the thicker formula will give her some relief. I am really worried now about her bad suck. I am trying to get in touch with the speech therapist that we saw at the Lake to find out if there is anything else we should try. I will probably also look into an OT consult for more answers. On top of everything, she has developed a cold...so the congestion doesn't help with feeding issues. It could possibly contribute to her sucking difficulties, but she was having difficulty with her sucking before that too. I'm not sure if maybe her crying during eating has to do with the fact that she can't suck well, and she is frustrated because the food can't get to her fast enough. I'll try to post again when I get more info.

Welcome

I thought this would be a more efficient way of getting out information. Whenever I know something new about Lydia's progress, I'll post it here. You can check back on your own time to find out how she and the rest of the Poche's are doing.